thirty-eight

feeling a bit blue these days

the days just fly on by
a week, a month, six months
have passed
and my loneliness is enhanced
by the cold that is seeping into our days and nights
i honestly don't know if i can be happy here
work is all i've got
and, luckily, it is incredible work that i love love love
but i fear it cannot sustain me completely
i need to dance
i need to laugh
i need to love

"When so many are lonely as seem to be lonely,
it would be inexcusably selfish to be lonely alone."
----Tennessee Williams

thirty-two

it's the little things...

that catch my eye.

thirty-one

sitting in my cozy warm apartment and watching the first snow falling outside.

perhaps i will not feel so poetic about the weather in a few months, but today i find it absolutely magical and beautiful and perfect.

in a couple hours i'll be out in it with some wonderful friends.
can't wait to smile in the cold and feel soft snowflakes all over my cheeks.

thirty

twenty years ago today there was a really big earthquake in my hometown.
it was a terrifying experience that i won't ever forget.
i learned fast.

how fifteen seconds can feel like forever.

how the things you are sure won't ever fall down sometimes do fall down.

how impossibly delicate this life is.

twenty-nine

a visit to the arnold arboretum this weekend

it was a lovely october day

something about being in the trees

feels a lot like home

twenty-eight

yum.

i sure am going to miss the farmers market this winter.

twenty-seven

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

-- Robert Frost

autumn is so beautiful
such a sweet time for renewal, harvest, letting go
i'm going to try to stretch out these days
carry this feeling
over and through the cold, cold months that i know
will soon be here
until then...
enjoying every moment of gold